Hardly I succeed in anything. It's been 26 years to this world. My achievements are very few but it is there in my opinion. Of course, if I didn't promote myself, who else can. After a struggle, I got 69% in 10th grade and 67% in 12th. Still I remember the sleepless nights to get this meagre marks. I was redundant to go to Gurunanak College to study graduation in Mathematics because, my father paid Rs. 20,000/- as a donation to the college which I feel a disgrace for my hard work during inter exams. I still remember, my father paid that money with his Standard Motor (company now not exist) Provident Fund amount. I somehow completed my graduation with 57% unwillingly in the academic year 2002. But I feel it is a milestone of my career still since, none of my college mate passed. I love Maths, but not like John Nash or Ramanujam.
Another milestone is getting a job in OfficeTiger organization with salary Rs. 7,000 per month in Jan 2004. I did lot of mistakes in HTC organization, so I couldn't make any promotions there. Even in OfficeTiger. Who doesn't have desire?. I joined a kind of Multi level marketing business and invested Rs.28,000 which was a big debacle and a big mental torture. It is about purchasing a gold coin...f**k off. Let us forget that.
I dropped MBA from Madras University, an another big setback which made me lose another Rs.40k. "Lost is not lost, it will one day come back to us oneday" I failed many subjects like organizational behavior, marketing etc., many times...still continuing...
Though I got promotion in OT and got a job in UBS are another milestones I reached, I gave Rs. 2000 to an acquaintance to buy cellphone, who did not repay that back and now the Bhadrachalam project coordination which lost Rs.1000. In this, I am getting married...how to manage a home or a family...
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
First Religious tour coordination-Bhadrachalam-futile
Praying the God in the temple for hours for peace and a temporary relief of sufferings, is one of the fantastic and wonderful experience. But once again when we come out and notice that our slippers has lost will take aback to the same end of suffering mind. This same happens here. Everything went well. Right from the night journey started with a bit of unknown pleasure, at 22:45 from Secunderabad on 9-Sep-09, friday till 12-Sep-09, sunday noon. Once reached Kothagudam railway station from Secuderabad, on 10th Sep early morning 5AM, we had a good early morning tea and caught an AC bus to Bhadrachalam temple bus stop for Rs. 25 each. It was 1 hour journey in the bus, with pleasant breeze and a very good view of a banks of River Godavari aside and crossing it on a nice bridge constructed upon it. A nice sleep too. We searched for a good cottage or any choultry after reaching Ram temple in auto after getting down from AC bus. Everything was good, but the rooms are located in a hill. After my father's suggestion, we got a small shabby room for Rs. 100/day adjacent to temple.
The wonderful thing is when we had a good bath in the running stream of water in गोदावरी river. Banks are getting spoiled by people overthere however. Of course, people will spoil good places, that is what they are meant for. We both went to temple straightaway after getting a dip from water and with a clothes being little dried-up. Had a good darshan of Lord Rama, Sita and Lakshmana with a little quarrel with a guy outside who demanded money in the name of ticket. With some mindboggling wavelength around us and/or some kind of vibration, we came outside the temple and had broken the morning fasting. I went to one Brahmana choultry while returning to room and requested for a good food. They took our request and asked us to come by 12:30pm. We gave Rs.100 for the food they offerred with whole heart but must have given them in thousands for offerring food without any expectations. Obviously, belly full of food pushed us to the bed to take rest.
Evening around 3:30 we started once again to Parnasala, where Sitadevi was abducted by Ravana in the Ramayana epic. Once again the good visual of river Godavari and the boating scene, felt in to my camera mobile. Lord Rama, Sita and an arrow on hand, Lakshmana drawing a line, Cruel Ravana shivering Sitadevi in the absence of Rama and Lakshmana and abducting her, all were depicted in the statue form. Oh God! for you, yourself this much sufferings, we are after all human beings... Returned home with not whole heart in an auto. Auto drivers are very good here in Andhra. Unlike Chennai auto drivers where we can see worst auto drivers in the world. Once again, I went up to see Bhadrachalam Ram.. not enough n times. That same night we left to Vijayawada in a government bus. You can guess the seat of a government bus. It took 5 hrs from Bhadrachalam temple to Vijayawada. Mid-night 2 'o clock we reached Vijayawada. Again an auto-wala took to a good hotel to stay. Thanks.
Morning in Vijayawada, we took a bus to Mangalagiri (Lakshmi Narasimhar temple & Panagala Narasimhar temple). Good dharshan of Lakshmi Narasimha swamy after a little wrong doing of having a breakfast. Still Lakshmi Thayaar dharshan with wearing glittering gold ornaments and wearing green sarie, is in my vision. We went to Panagala Narasimhar swamy temple then, where Narasimhar swamy (God with Lion face) is drinking Panagam a kind of good drink. People says throughout this yuga, he will drink Panagam. Wonderful photos are taken. As usual, returned home, had food and rest. Evening to KanagaDurga temple.. Wow!! it was a fascinating experience, taking bath in Krishna river and climbing hill-top immediately. Done everything well. Followed the footsteps of mother's pilgrimage.
Here comes the climax. I missed the early morning 2:25 train to Secunderabad from Vijaywada, which we were, especially I was, expecting a lot, coming in AC train. This shows the coordination capacity of me. My previous company manager tells me you are good for nothing. This incident proves. Am I responsible for the wrong? This is religious tour, wouldn't the God has set the path perfectly till the end? Am I that much dumb enough to miss the train timing? I like spirituality, I like religious tour. I like to suffer much to see God. But why this happens when I am eagerly want to see him. Though lot of people do darshan, so would me, I want to ask him one question why he is not coming down little bit to see people who are very much eager in seeing him?
The total trip is good but final finishing went as vain, which is making me guilty whether I am capable of doing things.
Let us see. But I won't give up.. till my death this chase continues and research on the purpose of my arrival to this world will continues... Even after death I won't question...That's how my life works.
The wonderful thing is when we had a good bath in the running stream of water in गोदावरी river. Banks are getting spoiled by people overthere however. Of course, people will spoil good places, that is what they are meant for. We both went to temple straightaway after getting a dip from water and with a clothes being little dried-up. Had a good darshan of Lord Rama, Sita and Lakshmana with a little quarrel with a guy outside who demanded money in the name of ticket. With some mindboggling wavelength around us and/or some kind of vibration, we came outside the temple and had broken the morning fasting. I went to one Brahmana choultry while returning to room and requested for a good food. They took our request and asked us to come by 12:30pm. We gave Rs.100 for the food they offerred with whole heart but must have given them in thousands for offerring food without any expectations. Obviously, belly full of food pushed us to the bed to take rest.
Evening around 3:30 we started once again to Parnasala, where Sitadevi was abducted by Ravana in the Ramayana epic. Once again the good visual of river Godavari and the boating scene, felt in to my camera mobile. Lord Rama, Sita and an arrow on hand, Lakshmana drawing a line, Cruel Ravana shivering Sitadevi in the absence of Rama and Lakshmana and abducting her, all were depicted in the statue form. Oh God! for you, yourself this much sufferings, we are after all human beings... Returned home with not whole heart in an auto. Auto drivers are very good here in Andhra. Unlike Chennai auto drivers where we can see worst auto drivers in the world. Once again, I went up to see Bhadrachalam Ram.. not enough n times. That same night we left to Vijayawada in a government bus. You can guess the seat of a government bus. It took 5 hrs from Bhadrachalam temple to Vijayawada. Mid-night 2 'o clock we reached Vijayawada. Again an auto-wala took to a good hotel to stay. Thanks.
Morning in Vijayawada, we took a bus to Mangalagiri (Lakshmi Narasimhar temple & Panagala Narasimhar temple). Good dharshan of Lakshmi Narasimha swamy after a little wrong doing of having a breakfast. Still Lakshmi Thayaar dharshan with wearing glittering gold ornaments and wearing green sarie, is in my vision. We went to Panagala Narasimhar swamy temple then, where Narasimhar swamy (God with Lion face) is drinking Panagam a kind of good drink. People says throughout this yuga, he will drink Panagam. Wonderful photos are taken. As usual, returned home, had food and rest. Evening to KanagaDurga temple.. Wow!! it was a fascinating experience, taking bath in Krishna river and climbing hill-top immediately. Done everything well. Followed the footsteps of mother's pilgrimage.
Here comes the climax. I missed the early morning 2:25 train to Secunderabad from Vijaywada, which we were, especially I was, expecting a lot, coming in AC train. This shows the coordination capacity of me. My previous company manager tells me you are good for nothing. This incident proves. Am I responsible for the wrong? This is religious tour, wouldn't the God has set the path perfectly till the end? Am I that much dumb enough to miss the train timing? I like spirituality, I like religious tour. I like to suffer much to see God. But why this happens when I am eagerly want to see him. Though lot of people do darshan, so would me, I want to ask him one question why he is not coming down little bit to see people who are very much eager in seeing him?
The total trip is good but final finishing went as vain, which is making me guilty whether I am capable of doing things.
Let us see. But I won't give up.. till my death this chase continues and research on the purpose of my arrival to this world will continues... Even after death I won't question...That's how my life works.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Time to Survive
Forget about bonus, salary & increment. This is the time to survive and make sure we have work. Around 1.5 lakh people lost their jobs in the U.S. who was once considered to be a super power country. Here in India, the fear of job-lose is getting heated up. Survival is becoming a big question. It is not their mistake too. Any company or management will take necessary steps to stop going it's company to bankruptcy
Firing, stopping redundancies, salary-cut, hike-cut/bonus cut, recruitment stoppage are some in the list titled cost saving. At the end of day, management cannot come with a solution of filing c7 or chapter 13 bankruptcy. Lehman Brothers, Nortel etc. are good example and a lesson for others to learn. Satyam fradulent played a major role at this juncture, where N R Narayanmoorthy (Infosys mentor) told, it is high time to review all our financial departments' statements and financial positions to get rid of fraudulence. For the benefit of 10 or 20 company cannot sacrifice itself or other 1000 employees.
Firing, stopping redundancies, salary-cut, hike-cut/bonus cut, recruitment stoppage are some in the list titled cost saving. At the end of day, management cannot come with a solution of filing c7 or chapter 13 bankruptcy. Lehman Brothers, Nortel etc. are good example and a lesson for others to learn. Satyam fradulent played a major role at this juncture, where N R Narayanmoorthy (Infosys mentor) told, it is high time to review all our financial departments' statements and financial positions to get rid of fraudulence. For the benefit of 10 or 20 company cannot sacrifice itself or other 1000 employees.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Head count cutting
Head count cutting is not a solution for cost reduction. Though market is in abyss, and all the companies are facing recession, the first and straight solution could not be fired from the company. there is a slight communism in this topic. I would strongly say there are lot of ways to cut the cost. Reducing the cab facility, amount reduction in food card, own transport benefits cut, etc. On top of that, the redundant parties like boosing party, kite festival, annual end party, team outting party, are ridiculous at this time. This is not the time to enjoy. It's time for all to bleed and sacrifice. We all enjoyed together and now we need to struggle together. Top management can keep a brain-storming session to get various notions for cost cutting. At last the people are being targetted are highly paid already and since the market is down and companies are not performing well at this point of time, they are literally pushed in to the ostrasized well. They are highly qualified too. That could be a disadvantage for them to get the job when they sent out...
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Chandraayan-1
The area above earth is known as atmosphere. It is a very good transformer of signals (digital and analogical). Cell-phone communication technology is driven by this. Everybody knows E-mail, browsing internet pages are done with the usage of satellites. Satellite launching in India is not new. Appending to this fame Chandraayan-1 launched on 22-Oct-08 is an important milestone in Indian Space research. The strange way of launching the satellite travelling through 5 orbits. The objective I learnt, is to launch Indian made launch vehicle, preparation of 3D atlas, which includes both far and near of moon.
The temperature of the satellite had been increased above 50 degree celcius to it had occurred due to higher than normal temperatures in lunar orbit. Afterthen it was brought down to 10 degree celcius. Till Jan-09 the moon is in the sunlit side, so the temperature should be set to high. There are 11 payloads weighs 90kg including 6 non-Indian (U.S., Europe, Bulgarian). http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chandrayaan-1#Payloads The total project cost is Rs.386 Crores. Chandraayan-II is being expected in 2012. Driving Indian mission in the way of success. As anonymous told success should be a milestone and not the destination.
The temperature of the satellite had been increased above 50 degree celcius to it had occurred due to higher than normal temperatures in lunar orbit. Afterthen it was brought down to 10 degree celcius. Till Jan-09 the moon is in the sunlit side, so the temperature should be set to high. There are 11 payloads weighs 90kg including 6 non-Indian (U.S., Europe, Bulgarian). http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chandrayaan-1#Payloads The total project cost is Rs.386 Crores. Chandraayan-II is being expected in 2012. Driving Indian mission in the way of success. As anonymous told success should be a milestone and not the destination.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Wisdom and not fear
From childhood the fear exists. I feared for education, feared for getting things done like placements, either job or higher studies. Now fear about future planning, savings, job-market condition, family. Famous Bible verse saying "Fear of God is the beginning of Wisdom". What is wisdom? On what I need wisdom? I am searching for what? Does God exist really? if so why he/she is hiding? What I need to do to see him/her?
What should I do to get wisdom on certain things? what are that certain things? If I do not know what I am searching for, How will I get wise on that? one year passed now coming to Hyderabad, the main purpose to come here is to earn money but, double the expense. If I become insolvent here, I will get back to Chennai, even there no home food only partially-owned house to relax.
What should I do to get wisdom on certain things? what are that certain things? If I do not know what I am searching for, How will I get wise on that? one year passed now coming to Hyderabad, the main purpose to come here is to earn money but, double the expense. If I become insolvent here, I will get back to Chennai, even there no home food only partially-owned house to relax.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Misfortune never comes in Single
Today 1-year passed, lot of things learnt in this one year. Handle different people with different emotion quotient. At once mother expires, I need to change my mind to come to work in Hyderabad-swiss bank. The next month my brother's house was burgled and his father-in-law expires in the succeeding month. We get split within this year. I got a 1BHK house for Rs.3,800/- rent. Started running 2-member family. Life goes on & on, without knowing the purpose of life....
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