Bereavement-The Lost Mother

Everybody likes and loves their mother, of course mother is the one who introduces, father even. I would do so. The parents take responsibilities for their childrens' birth and providing better life. However, children (son/daughter) cannot take full responsibility for their parents life, after an extent. Even organization/insurance policies are finding the grip in providing the service to the old. Our organization is one of the best one (UBS) but failed to provide medical assistance/insurance for the parental dependeesProfessional pathAfter finishing my degree (B.Sc Maths) in 2002 may, I started my professional career in Sep-02 at Cybervision solutions as a data entry operator with the salary of just Rs. 1,750/month (3months) and found a little betterment in HTC global services for Rs.2,250/month (Dec-02 till Jan-04). I started thinking, instead of searching betterment in the work profile, why don't we design our career path in such a way to climb up the corporate ladder or to get a very good salary. For a normal young who has not aligned his education properly, will take a period of 5 to 8 years to set his professional path. But, my father is already 55 when I was just 20. It was then, the high time to put myself in a proper professional path, so as to get rid of my father from his tiresome work. It is one of my responsibility. The pathetic situation is, my brother, he was earning only Rs. 7,500/month by then. So our total family income comes around 13,000/m.Turn-upLife turned up after joining OfficeTiger (now RR Donnelley) in Jan-04. We (me and my brother) both worked for OT. Now the salary of mine would be 6,500/m and my brother would be 10,000/m. I strived hard to climb one step in that corporate ladder of OT. Finally, I was offerred 12,000/m with the prospective promotion as, Lead Document specialist post and added onus to be incharge for desktop application testing division comprising of 3 core members.Subject to constraintWhy I am emphasising the career path here is, I was not able to save my mother even I am earning such a huge amount with no credits/liabilities. The wholesum amount will come to my parents excluding my conveyance expenses. Unusual thing here is, every month she will not ask for the salary amount. But she did so, for the month of December-07 on 1st of Jan. The new year 2008 came. Unlike most of us, its just another day for me. I slept well on new year eve night after watching all the scraps in TV. The new-year day left with usual things. Next day, I my day started and left to the office casually by saying bye and take care to my parents. Fine evening arrived. Rightly 3pm I received a call from my father that your mother died. I was stunned. What next? Baffled. State of Pandemonium. I was planning, to take my parents, to Hyderabad where I got an excellent job with the salary of Rs. 22,000/m. Look at the deviation, from 12,000 to 22,000. It is just a big hick-up, but at any cost I cannot speak, at least one word, with my mother. Crying at 1:11AM even after 3month of that big bereavement. My mother is like a kid. She will never ever give hers (even pencil) to anybody at any cost. That much possessiveness.WonderI was wondering, why God took my mother and gave me a very royal like and luxurious life. Money can't buy all. There are still things exist in this universe, which any human hardly buy with his whole wealth. Parents gave me birth in this wonderful and fantastic world. They protected me from evil, they hold me back from Jaundice when I suffered and gave a new birth. They did all for me. But (crying) I could not hold them back, from their death. Neither anyone does..... I pray to God, I should not come to this world when I am gone....