Hardly I succeed in anything. It's been 26 years to this world. My achievements are very few but it is there in my opinion. Of course, if I didn't promote myself, who else can. After a struggle, I got 69% in 10th grade and 67% in 12th. Still I remember the sleepless nights to get this meagre marks. I was redundant to go to Gurunanak College to study graduation in Mathematics because, my father paid Rs. 20,000/- as a donation to the college which I feel a disgrace for my hard work during inter exams. I still remember, my father paid that money with his Standard Motor (company now not exist) Provident Fund amount. I somehow completed my graduation with 57% unwillingly in the academic year 2002. But I feel it is a milestone of my career still since, none of my college mate passed. I love Maths, but not like John Nash or Ramanujam.
Another milestone is getting a job in OfficeTiger organization with salary Rs. 7,000 per month in Jan 2004. I did lot of mistakes in HTC organization, so I couldn't make any promotions there. Even in OfficeTiger. Who doesn't have desire?. I joined a kind of Multi level marketing business and invested Rs.28,000 which was a big debacle and a big mental torture. It is about purchasing a gold coin...f**k off. Let us forget that.
I dropped MBA from Madras University, an another big setback which made me lose another Rs.40k. "Lost is not lost, it will one day come back to us oneday" I failed many subjects like organizational behavior, marketing etc., many times...still continuing...
Though I got promotion in OT and got a job in UBS are another milestones I reached, I gave Rs. 2000 to an acquaintance to buy cellphone, who did not repay that back and now the Bhadrachalam project coordination which lost Rs.1000. In this, I am getting married...how to manage a home or a family...
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
First Religious tour coordination-Bhadrachalam-futile
Praying the God in the temple for hours for peace and a temporary relief of sufferings, is one of the fantastic and wonderful experience. But once again when we come out and notice that our slippers has lost will take aback to the same end of suffering mind. This same happens here. Everything went well. Right from the night journey started with a bit of unknown pleasure, at 22:45 from Secunderabad on 9-Sep-09, friday till 12-Sep-09, sunday noon. Once reached Kothagudam railway station from Secuderabad, on 10th Sep early morning 5AM, we had a good early morning tea and caught an AC bus to Bhadrachalam temple bus stop for Rs. 25 each. It was 1 hour journey in the bus, with pleasant breeze and a very good view of a banks of River Godavari aside and crossing it on a nice bridge constructed upon it. A nice sleep too. We searched for a good cottage or any choultry after reaching Ram temple in auto after getting down from AC bus. Everything was good, but the rooms are located in a hill. After my father's suggestion, we got a small shabby room for Rs. 100/day adjacent to temple.
The wonderful thing is when we had a good bath in the running stream of water in गोदावरी river. Banks are getting spoiled by people overthere however. Of course, people will spoil good places, that is what they are meant for. We both went to temple straightaway after getting a dip from water and with a clothes being little dried-up. Had a good darshan of Lord Rama, Sita and Lakshmana with a little quarrel with a guy outside who demanded money in the name of ticket. With some mindboggling wavelength around us and/or some kind of vibration, we came outside the temple and had broken the morning fasting. I went to one Brahmana choultry while returning to room and requested for a good food. They took our request and asked us to come by 12:30pm. We gave Rs.100 for the food they offerred with whole heart but must have given them in thousands for offerring food without any expectations. Obviously, belly full of food pushed us to the bed to take rest.
Evening around 3:30 we started once again to Parnasala, where Sitadevi was abducted by Ravana in the Ramayana epic. Once again the good visual of river Godavari and the boating scene, felt in to my camera mobile. Lord Rama, Sita and an arrow on hand, Lakshmana drawing a line, Cruel Ravana shivering Sitadevi in the absence of Rama and Lakshmana and abducting her, all were depicted in the statue form. Oh God! for you, yourself this much sufferings, we are after all human beings... Returned home with not whole heart in an auto. Auto drivers are very good here in Andhra. Unlike Chennai auto drivers where we can see worst auto drivers in the world. Once again, I went up to see Bhadrachalam Ram.. not enough n times. That same night we left to Vijayawada in a government bus. You can guess the seat of a government bus. It took 5 hrs from Bhadrachalam temple to Vijayawada. Mid-night 2 'o clock we reached Vijayawada. Again an auto-wala took to a good hotel to stay. Thanks.
Morning in Vijayawada, we took a bus to Mangalagiri (Lakshmi Narasimhar temple & Panagala Narasimhar temple). Good dharshan of Lakshmi Narasimha swamy after a little wrong doing of having a breakfast. Still Lakshmi Thayaar dharshan with wearing glittering gold ornaments and wearing green sarie, is in my vision. We went to Panagala Narasimhar swamy temple then, where Narasimhar swamy (God with Lion face) is drinking Panagam a kind of good drink. People says throughout this yuga, he will drink Panagam. Wonderful photos are taken. As usual, returned home, had food and rest. Evening to KanagaDurga temple.. Wow!! it was a fascinating experience, taking bath in Krishna river and climbing hill-top immediately. Done everything well. Followed the footsteps of mother's pilgrimage.
Here comes the climax. I missed the early morning 2:25 train to Secunderabad from Vijaywada, which we were, especially I was, expecting a lot, coming in AC train. This shows the coordination capacity of me. My previous company manager tells me you are good for nothing. This incident proves. Am I responsible for the wrong? This is religious tour, wouldn't the God has set the path perfectly till the end? Am I that much dumb enough to miss the train timing? I like spirituality, I like religious tour. I like to suffer much to see God. But why this happens when I am eagerly want to see him. Though lot of people do darshan, so would me, I want to ask him one question why he is not coming down little bit to see people who are very much eager in seeing him?
The total trip is good but final finishing went as vain, which is making me guilty whether I am capable of doing things.
Let us see. But I won't give up.. till my death this chase continues and research on the purpose of my arrival to this world will continues... Even after death I won't question...That's how my life works.
The wonderful thing is when we had a good bath in the running stream of water in गोदावरी river. Banks are getting spoiled by people overthere however. Of course, people will spoil good places, that is what they are meant for. We both went to temple straightaway after getting a dip from water and with a clothes being little dried-up. Had a good darshan of Lord Rama, Sita and Lakshmana with a little quarrel with a guy outside who demanded money in the name of ticket. With some mindboggling wavelength around us and/or some kind of vibration, we came outside the temple and had broken the morning fasting. I went to one Brahmana choultry while returning to room and requested for a good food. They took our request and asked us to come by 12:30pm. We gave Rs.100 for the food they offerred with whole heart but must have given them in thousands for offerring food without any expectations. Obviously, belly full of food pushed us to the bed to take rest.
Evening around 3:30 we started once again to Parnasala, where Sitadevi was abducted by Ravana in the Ramayana epic. Once again the good visual of river Godavari and the boating scene, felt in to my camera mobile. Lord Rama, Sita and an arrow on hand, Lakshmana drawing a line, Cruel Ravana shivering Sitadevi in the absence of Rama and Lakshmana and abducting her, all were depicted in the statue form. Oh God! for you, yourself this much sufferings, we are after all human beings... Returned home with not whole heart in an auto. Auto drivers are very good here in Andhra. Unlike Chennai auto drivers where we can see worst auto drivers in the world. Once again, I went up to see Bhadrachalam Ram.. not enough n times. That same night we left to Vijayawada in a government bus. You can guess the seat of a government bus. It took 5 hrs from Bhadrachalam temple to Vijayawada. Mid-night 2 'o clock we reached Vijayawada. Again an auto-wala took to a good hotel to stay. Thanks.
Morning in Vijayawada, we took a bus to Mangalagiri (Lakshmi Narasimhar temple & Panagala Narasimhar temple). Good dharshan of Lakshmi Narasimha swamy after a little wrong doing of having a breakfast. Still Lakshmi Thayaar dharshan with wearing glittering gold ornaments and wearing green sarie, is in my vision. We went to Panagala Narasimhar swamy temple then, where Narasimhar swamy (God with Lion face) is drinking Panagam a kind of good drink. People says throughout this yuga, he will drink Panagam. Wonderful photos are taken. As usual, returned home, had food and rest. Evening to KanagaDurga temple.. Wow!! it was a fascinating experience, taking bath in Krishna river and climbing hill-top immediately. Done everything well. Followed the footsteps of mother's pilgrimage.
Here comes the climax. I missed the early morning 2:25 train to Secunderabad from Vijaywada, which we were, especially I was, expecting a lot, coming in AC train. This shows the coordination capacity of me. My previous company manager tells me you are good for nothing. This incident proves. Am I responsible for the wrong? This is religious tour, wouldn't the God has set the path perfectly till the end? Am I that much dumb enough to miss the train timing? I like spirituality, I like religious tour. I like to suffer much to see God. But why this happens when I am eagerly want to see him. Though lot of people do darshan, so would me, I want to ask him one question why he is not coming down little bit to see people who are very much eager in seeing him?
The total trip is good but final finishing went as vain, which is making me guilty whether I am capable of doing things.
Let us see. But I won't give up.. till my death this chase continues and research on the purpose of my arrival to this world will continues... Even after death I won't question...That's how my life works.
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